Do I exist?

Thoughts in mind are convertible to words. Conversion quality defines the quality of speech. During the process of thinking you don't think that your thoughts can be converted into logically and poetically beautiful words. I usually hope that my thoughts are always can be beautifully converted into words, every of my thought. Believing that you can find the words is easy. But let's imagine that you wake up one day and you try to explain something. You try to remember how to say that, and you fail. You fail once, twice - because you just can't access that information from your brain which you could easily speak about yesterday. What happened? Those information somehow isn't there anymore. You feel like you have to take classes of English as a second language. Why? You don't know why, maybe because you're aging? But you are still too young.

Some people pray to never lose their ability to think.

Our past is a movie. What you gonna watch today? Your childhood chapter? Your college years? Or maybe you want see how you're dying? Oops, that's non-existent part. Today I can tell some story of my childhood, and write it to my blog in details. 10 years later I can't guarantee you that I even will be able to recognize whether what I wrote was truth or lie, because it may happen that I won't be able to recall it.

Our brain is definitely logically correct and mathematically rational. You can see logic in the actions of insane and wrong people. We have some part of brain which is responsible for watching movies. Not the regular digital movies, but movies like your perception: eyes, sound, smells and other feelings. The same thing in our brain is responsible for watching movies from past, or for modeling situations which potentially can be imagined as something which can potentially happen. When you watch the movie coming from your eye, you have choice to put it as a background process (when you don't pay attention for what you see and at the same time floating in the clouds).

But difficult part is not watching movies of your consciousness or subconsciousness, difficult part is making a choices according data you have.